That is terrible, let think about my performance have so many bad point. i had period of time fail to the held, may family will so sad about this news, i'll become a laughing-stock with my friend, think of that make me so tired. What i have to do now ? I don't know what is exactly i have to do now but i know one thing if this thinking still stay with me, i will become a mount of sewage bye myself.
When i stop thinking, i looked peace in Zen but i can't leave my bad thinking away from me. what will you do in this case?
What should i do now ?
My solve is stop thinking and do anything i can, i play with children, many strange children to to stop thinking. The wondering is happen with me, i become easy to thinking concentrate, the positive thinking begin come with me. I continuous think about future, goals and family.
This experience make me think about a story of a monk about : how to exterminate wild grass on a land forever ?
He, a master, ask his student this question and he received many of answer. Ones said use hoe to hoe up ground, and burn all, ones said use herbicides to destroy all of them,... And many another. So what do you think about this question ? How can you exterminate wild grass in your garden, forever ?
Let's thinking and comments if you think you right, next times i will show you the exactly answer.